he leaves in five days

I'm already missing him and he isn't even gone yet. But I'm aware that I'm taking his photo more than I ever have...I wake at night with a list of things to 'remind him to do' running through my head...It's been coming for months and he's excited and I'm excited for him. I know it will be a wonderful first in his life. A time to be free from all constraints... a time of trust and discernment...a whole summer of new adventure!??!

and I worry for the poor kid!
my baby traipsing across northern Spain...pilgrimaging...
I know he wants to keep it simple and just take it as it comes, but I feel the need to prepare, and provide......and be anxious

So maybe this is going to be good for both of us, all of us. Just trusting him to his own resources and in God's hands.......Surely all will be well...

Our youngest son asked in the car coming home the other day, "do you think he'll come back?"
That thought never even entered my mind!?!? Of course he'll come back!?!? He said he thinks he might end up staying there!?

I don't so much think he won't come back because he'll choose to stay there, but that something will happen to him...plane crash...wild dog attack...falling off a cliff...robbed and left for dead...starvation...
and he'll never come home at all.

He's made all his CD's, made a portfolio of music, and made videos...as if to record his life if and when his life is taken from us...we'll have his music...his memory!?!?

I guess everyone entertains crazy thoughts when big trips like this happen...(we made our wills before we left the country last year?!?)
worry...the knowledge that from here on out everything is our of your control..........
Like when my best friend's son studied in China........

Breath....pray......trust....
all will be well, all manner of things will be well