ONE longing

The other day I rediscovered this wonderful artist's beautiful and inspiring work.

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At first it sent me into that usual downward spiral. My inner crazy person accusing me...[or is it imploring me?!??!]

"See, you a NOT an artist...artists make art... daily... beautiful creations... you would like to think yourself creative... but where is your body of work?!? What have your created or made that is of beauty lately... ?!?!?"

shrug?!?

I click my camera everyday...trying to capture the world that I exist in and am part of.

That is something.......I do this daily journal thing...

another something... it's bulky and much more heavily worded than the simply beautiful and concise habit, though even with all my words...what I have to utter isn't anywhere near as interesting and well written as the rich, wonderful, social, personal, reflective, thoughtful commentary of Jo, or as hearfelt and inspiring as Tricia, or as profound and spiritual as the reflections of conversion diary or...a teachable heart, or as kind and inviting and giving as Relyn

but it is me, and this is all that I am..........
I think I remember Popeye saying "I am what I ams, cause I can't bes no more..."

I am not all that they are, artists, writers, philosophers even, it seems!

I read the word, (and even managed a few books this summer), I do the Stephen Ministry...

I have a life... I know...and I love my life

But I see so much out there that I long for, aspire to....... I would love to produce beautiful little collages. Ones that contain 'the life' and 'the photo'...

Even trying to capture that 'perfect image' of the day, I find difficulty with. There are so many beautiful captures of 'real photographers' or even of amateur photographers, that I catch a glimpse of everyday. Things I wish I could do, techniques, or world views...styles....

All expressed in one neat image!

Then there are these collages. She apparently has everything she needs to create surrounding her....scraps and photos and words and paper and stamps and 'stuff'......

Even just having all that stuff boogles my mind?!?

I have trouble seeing 'the image' to point and click at......She is gathering before hand and compiling, and creating every moment of her day...to create whatever she intends, or what ever flows out of her that day.......

I'm in awe......

I do long for some true artistic creation though, be it photography or be it painting or collage....

and yet here I sit at a keyboard?!?