the last evening of august, the morning after...gnocchi

monday at mon


I think about extreme 'Home Makeover' with Ty
the work he does
the families who live the lives they live
with suffering and sacrifice
how big both aspects of that show are
how much is given
and received

I think about Mother Theresa and Terese of Liseux
their little lives

I think about my life
my little service
being a chaplin
being obedient to what the Lord places before me

I look at this little space
6th floor main elevator lounge
the beautiful green
the comfy chairs
the expanse of windows
looking out over the parking lot, the book depository
the trees
the mountain ridge

I love beautiful spaces
I'd love to have a beautiful space
create a beautiful space

I think of 'Susie' Nola's excitement over her church
at 68 years old
and I hear Betty Lee's words to me about being a chaplin
"you can do it"

and the desire of my heart
flares up again

Wingspan Farms

there is no 'how'
it is out of the range of possibility/probability

I could at least work toward being a chaplin, school, degrees, hours, more school...accreditation

but having that farm...the retreat center
is 'a hope and a prayer'

I think of my husband
wanting me to work
"you should apply there"

and I think of my 365 project

how does it all come together
how does it glorify God
how should I please Him
is He pleased?!?

what does He have in store...
does any of this matter to Him?
or serve His will?
bring Him glory?

or is it just my way of feeling like I have a momentary purpose?
doing something of value?