Thursday, February 24, 2011
sacred longing
I have felt this familiar longing before
in my living
in the gratitude
enters the dreaming
a longing
but after spending time with an old friend the other day
I'm seeing it thru different eyes
the whole world is out there waiting
we decide...
what to be
who to be with
where to be
we decide
and we 'become'
a spouse
a parent
a homemaker
a wage earner
in a house on a nice street
living the dream
or at least what looks like it
one day long into the living
we realize life wasn't all it appeared to be
and suddenly we're back to square one
wondering
who we are
what we have been
and
will it ever be again
I am so grateful
for my little postage stamp of a yard
my sidewalk garden
my many rooms
the man I love
who loves me
our children
our life is good
my little life
and someday our time here will end
as we enter our true home
and these we love will live on
with that blessed assurance
but even in all that sweetness
the longing of my heart remains
my favortie verse echoes thru my mind
one thing I ask of the Lord
this
will I seek
that
I may dwell in the house of the Lord
all the days of my life
to behold the beauty of the Lord
Psalm 27
and so today
this day of my life
as I remember that I am dwelling in His house
in Him
I need to see His beauty
and not long for something other
something more
the beach front
or the mountain stream
many people long to come to their final days
at home
wherever that may be
here
in the cold
or there
near their kids
never obtaining some dream home
some bigger life
their stuff
their family
surrounding them
is enough
I know I am blessed with more than enough stuff
and a wonderful healthy safe happy bunch of family to boot!
yet my heart is ever wandering...longing
maybe I need to acknowledge
that my longing may be given by Him
for Him
I may actually be longing for God's beauty...
not some place
or idyllic little reality
but the beauty of the Lord
is it able to be found
here
now today
or is it for some future time
and place yet to come
daily He reveals Himself to me
taunting me taunting me
with the reality that
yes
there really is more
I will do my best today to find it
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1 comment:
Appreciation. Contentment. Gratitude. All words that came to mind when I read your post. Something I need to remind myself of more often. Thanks for your visit! :-)
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