Wednesday, June 15, 2011

"it won't always be like this"...for lovely Rita

MORNINGS...for



I am not the only one......
and so with all the fear within me I say

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thank you, Lord for moments that change
otherwise
I'd be the one looking over a hotel balcony
into a little girl and boys' faces

I'd be nothing more than the bad that I feel

I'd be a controlling perfectionist
demanding and demeaning
who drove those closest to me to
depression and desperation

because of my own
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but I open my mouth to say
I am afraid
and even if my precious words are lost in the shadows
of your own dark fears

something in me tells me
I am...
a little more

we
are

moments change
light falls
shadows are cast
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sometimes light
sometimes shadow
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there is
       more than me
       than what I see
       what I feel
       what I know
       what I want
       what I lack

there is beauty
there is here
there is now

and there is eternity
for later
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will the arms catch me
if I take the wings of the morning?

will they find me
guide me
hold me
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I do believe
Lord, help my unbelief

let the moments keep changing
shining in the darkness
light in the morning
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If I take the wings of the morning
and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea
even there
shall you lead me
even there will you hold me
          Psalm 139: 9-10
                  sung at our wedding
                  and so many times in my head, since
                  always drowning out
                        the other voices in my crazy head

                  the beautiful arms that safely hold us

6 comments:

Kelly Sauer said...

breathtaking, Ali. the words, the photos, the prayer, your heart.

I am so glad you shared with us at Three today.

Patricia said...

Oh, so poignant and beautiful, Ali.

patty said...

what a beautiful post and stunning images... love.
xo

S. Etole said...

this is incredibly beautiful ... but your photos always are

Leslie said...

coming over here for the first time (led by the "3" link on susan's blog) and i'm so glad i did. i am so touched by your words and images here - so encouraged and strengthened by them. thank you. i especially liked this:

"there is beauty
there is here
there is now

and there is eternity
for later"

Faith Hope and Cherrytea said...

beautiful ~ again !
blessings on your 'morning's...