different days

afraid
afraid the rain may keep us from our beach trip
   packed my slicker just in case
   [and some suisse mocha and a nice bottle of wine...]

afraid that going away is really not a very good idea
    right now
there is still so much cleaning to do...
and preparing for our family to come
    [the carpet cleaning guy is doing the carpets...
     ....as we speak!?!?]

afraid all the weeks/months of planning
really isn't going to produce the desired effect
   that andy's nightmare will come true
   and it'll look like 'the day after' a bad yard sale?!?!

but I think having this weekend before us
has been great incentive
a firm time line to have things ready
   well, as ready as we can be right now

I think it'll be good to go away
get away
breathe
think
feel
for a moment

it's been so much of the busy~ness
getting it done

with lovely little weekly wednesday lunch talks
that help us to 'be not afraid'

but we are about to enter another
big change

which is why there is all this preparation

it's a day to stand out from all other days
a day to dress differently
a day to eat differently
   a meal not cooked by my hon!?!?
   the most important dinner of our lives?!?!
   and all we did was pick from our choices
   in the brochure?!?!

and it is so different from other days
because "from this day forward"
"all the days of their life" which follow
will be different

she will join her brother before her
in living a life now lived differently
a married life

three short days later
son one
gets back on a plane
and goes 'far far away'
to re~unite 'the far family'