sitting at my computer this afternoon
after a day of hard work
at work
and a morning at the funeral of an old friend
"who loved us"
climbing
up
down
lifting
moving
rearranging
visualizing
washing cabinets
and the dirt that gathers on beautiful things
from my hands
many times
at work
and then at home
preparing for dinner
and yet...
as I brush my hand across my face
I smell the scent of my hubby
somehow it lingers
on me
or is it in the air
that is what I will miss
if he goes before me
how will I ever wash my hands again?!?
or our sheets?
I will know that he is in that better place
home
that place he says he is ready for...
visiting with his mom
after all these many years
sitting at the feet of the founding fathers
I will miss him
breathing
his sounds of life
upstairs
downstairs
front door
home
kitchen
keyboard
sighs
lights out
covers straightened
warm
I will miss him
It is an odd thing to be at the time in life
when leaving it is more imminent
than ever before
just being alive
makes it a certainty
that we shall someday depart this life
into eternal life
someday
babies
even before their birth
have entered into 'life'
before us
children
young moms
and dads
husbands
wives
friends
all departed at what seemed to be an unlikely time
prematurely
too soon
and many live good long lives
what will be?
as we add to our years
and the passing
is ever more likely...
will we too...have 62 years.... together
and a glorious 52 degree day to say good-bye?
2 comments:
This is so true, we have been married 38 years I am 57 and he is 58 last november they found a mass in his liver. It scared me. To go into retirement alone is not what I would choose. We had people pray, and he is fine. No need for surgery or removal of the mass it is ok.
God is good. God would have been good even if the news were not so positive, but I was praying "Lord don't leave me alone". In our 'stage' it is more likely one of us will leave in the next 10-15 years, like you say, what will we remember? I hope many things. That is why I blog, it is a legacy to pass on, my thoughts on paper to read after I am gone.
There are only three possibilities. 1.He will go first. 2.You will go first. 3.You will go 'together' in some dreadful accident. Unless The Rapture happens first!
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