all that i am

I am ever thankful
for the man I open my eyes to every morning

at my side
in our sunny kitchen
making a second cup of coffee for me

as I stand distracted
from washing the many dishes from the night before
by the shadows
on the wall

my hair caught in the light
casting shadow

darkness
light


I know there were times in our life
when I wanted to walk away from it all
from it all
into the surf
into the deep

I try to recall those times
but I cannot remember them

why was I crazy, sad, hurting?
what was so bad?
how did I feel?

something else has replaced those
memories
feelings
places

and I am ever grateful
for having lived
for having come through
for being exactly where we are

some live in that place
they hurt
and are in pain
and are angry
and feel neglected

and choose to walk away
and alone
rather than coming through


someday I may be alone
if he completes his journey home before I do
but I will still be surrounded
by love

by the love that has surrounded me since I came into this world

and the love that I entered into when I entered his world

and the love we have created together

warm embraces
smiling faces
movement
activity

life

I will miss
the world we now live in
our glorious little life
together

him in the morning light
him by the stars at the night

him when the day is done
somehow
someway
we two have become one...