open wide your mouth

Open wide your mouth...
and I will fill it
         Psalm 81:10

my head falls back
blindly looking up
grasping
open mouthed
gut wrenching
gulps
gasping for air
it has to be here somewhere
I know I was just breathing
crying out tears
that come from some place deep
with such power
they overwhelm
sucking me empty
and seeming like they never will cease

empty...
yes....fill me, Lord
fill me
once again
with only You

know me
and allow me to know
Your mercy
Your love
...knowing...

not the taint of childhood lost
not the shame of the fall

I will...
to forget
the sun, its warmth
the rain, its smell
the moon, its shadow
I will go...
to sin no more

but Lord, to where shall I go

remain
right here

in....the beauty the glory the peace the order
the certainty
the presence
still
right here
all around
beautiful, glorious, peaceful, orderly, certain...
present

not washed away
by the floodwaters of my own tears
not seeping away

solid ground remains
even though it sinks everywhere I step
I stand... cautiously
maintaining balance
having slipped
I am caught
in mid fall

grasping
gulping
looking up


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