all that i am

yesterday after I was 'cancelled'
I ate almost all the leftover easter candy...
all that was left in the bag of cheetos-cheese-that-goes-crunch...
and even had a tastykake~butterscotch krimpet
and I don't even like them?!?!?

and then I watched a whole evening of the real housewives of NYC
on demand

I can't have want I want

I am...
         out of control
I am...
        disappointed

be still
and
know...
I am...
...God
          Psalm 46:10

all those days of preparing, shopping, cleaning, packing...
everything is done...the house clean around me...
the bags at the door

now~what?

I know one thing... I am not unpacking!
I pulled my daily reading and meditation book
from my easy to get to zippered flap
and sat down with my morning hot sweet creamy coffee
in my usual morning place
to do my reading
and turned to today
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
and read

St. Anselm
              "Give yourself a little leisure to converse with God
              and take your rest awhile in Him." 
and so today that is what He has for me...
taking leisure...in Him.

maybe they will have a baby today?!??!
"Wednesday's child is merry and glad"
those numbers look nice together...
and it is also Tessa's birthday...

It has to be okay...
for it is what is
no matter how much we want something other...
on either side of this great sea
and this once in a life time volcanic eruption
that separates us

be still...give yourself a little leisure
and know God...take time to rest awhile in Him

for no matter where we are in this huge~magnificent~
out of control world
we are always safe and secure
IN the loving arms of our Father, maker of heaven and earth