all that i am

leaping for joy

August 2008
tebs had just graduated from hs
and would start university in a month
bim was just about to go back to campus for his second year of undergrad
coco had just graduated university (in three years)
and had moved to the city and was living and working on her own
and this would be do's last summer before leaving home
for his camino, to meet his wife, and have his child...
we had just returned home from our 25th anniversary tour of Italy...

life's changes happen in a moment
months later...came fall...
four years later...and here we are...

as quickly as this past hour has gone by
taking with it it's peach colored tree tops and golden roof lines
the next hours, and days, and months and years
and summer will go by too

and what about these next 29 years
if we are even blessed with that many days!?

what about this day
and it's sufficient evil...

I know I needn't "worry"

but how do I live in joy?
how do I live?

this far into the living
and still I ask

obedience
prayer
presence


beholding His golden beauty
in the coolness of the day

this is it
and it
is good

letting it all go
and letting God
reveal and accomplish what He will


as the rain comes down 
and the snow from heaven
and do not return there
but water the earth and make it bring forth bud
that it may give seed to the sower
and bread to the eater
so shall My word be
that goes forth from My mouth
It shall not return to me void
but it shall accomplish what I please
and it shall prosper in the thing
for which I sent it
      Isaiah 55:10-11

I remember the leap I felt within me
the day the Holy Spirit
awakened in me

I remember the contentment
of the years in the days of summer

and now
I know my feelings and emotion
and have been able to look carefully at them and name them
truthfully

but now
what?
the same longing that I have had forever
for joy

the joy of the Lord

You will show me the path of life
In Your presence is fullness of joy
at Your right hand are pleasures forevermore
     Psalm 16:11